i've decided to throw in the towel. such a huge waste of an opportunity but i just feel that i can't hold on for long. my spirit has wilted, and all i want right now is just to drop everyrthin and have time for myself. i'm tired, juz so so tired...i am so totally consumed by work and absorbed with myself.
3 weeks to go as my mum reminded me...soon, my living nightmare woud be over. i hope then, i would relive and breathe with more ease and be more of who i was. i truly miss the joy of livin, bein happy, havin the ability to fulfill and be there for my loved ones. everyday is a numbin experience, whereby at the end of everyday, i juz wish i fall into the comforts of his arms or juz lie in bed or juz mind my own business. juz want to be at the RECEIVING end.
it's pathetic tis past month or weeks but nonetheless, without such experiences, i would never noe, how low i could sink. yes, i'm not all that strong afterall. i need an escape route...i choose to take flight rather than fight. a clean break would probably lead me to a better path, insya Allah...hope Mesye is right.
good nite n happy week end everyone
|'m sure there will be a beta opportunity ahead for u.... Haf a breaK nW and look for a beta tomolo....remember i'll be here for u ....*wink*
ReplyDeletei'm glad :)
ReplyDeleteaint true babe... it takes courage to get out into the wide world and start the process all over again. i know it wasnt an easy choice to make and now its done, just look forward to better things to come. things happen for a reason and i'm sure He knows best. take care and stay chirpy... cya later!
ReplyDeleteenjoy ur double date later cuzzin! have fun!
ReplyDelete=P
Happy weekend to u too!
ReplyDeleteraf13: chirpy? soon i hope
ReplyDeleteboneeta: thanx cuzzin! u have a great shoppin day out!
prodigic: yeah thanx! see u n raf later!
Keep on at it. . .(whatever you decide to do)
ReplyDeleteYou'll eventually find the groove of things.
And before you know it, you're back in control!
Best of luck!
Have a great wkend to you too. Hope everything goes well and smooth for u. :)
ReplyDeleteAre you dying soph?
ReplyDeletehugs...hope you see a great light of solution to your soul soon
ReplyDeletewishing you all the best in the next step you'll embark. do let me know if there's anything i can help ya dear gal.
ReplyDeleteiqlima, nebride, jezzy: thanx ladies!
ReplyDeletedrake4life: my fighting spirit is!
Come here u!
ReplyDeleteno worries....throwing the towel is not a dead end....
ReplyDeleteu just messed up the floor only....
hehehehe...
all the best!
well, no worries, rezeki ada selagi kita terus berusaha. anyway did u read yesterday's new paper. abt this lady who's also a degree holder but she quite her job to persue her interest in belly dancing. she performs but do her masters at the same time. maybe u could do the same. just a suggestion but importantly, do something u'd enjoy... :)
ReplyDeletewho ah?? i didn't read newspaper! is it my friend jessica?? she's doin her masters' too!
ReplyDeletei think so.. the finalist of miss universe..
ReplyDeleteHer name is Angelina Tay. . .
ReplyDeletesorry. . .i menyampuk. . .
=)
ooo i think i noe who, thanx ladies!
ReplyDeletehey hey babe, hang in there. hope all will work out for u soon =)
ReplyDeletewishing you the best
ReplyDeletethank u jim :)
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