Return

I realised now that I have fallen so low to a point that perhaps I allow others to just trample on me & do as they please accordin to their whims. I awaken now with a renewed vision. Felt like I was slapped hard tis mornin from what I was doin and inshaa Allah I shall rebuild life with dignity. I found a renewed sense of bravery(a tiny bit) & it is time I stand up with chin up. 

Dear Lord, time and again you have shown me yet I was too blind to see or accept that which you have keep layin out in front of me. It is time I protect my heart & reserve it for You only, instead of leavin it open for scarrin again & again & again. Enough. I will not submit to my whims, his whims, her whims or anybody's...but I will be made broken for You. Please continue showing me the way to put my heart in servin You as the main priority in my life and let me take steps forward towards inner peace and bliss.

 

O my Lord, here I am at Your service, here I am.

There is no partner with You,

here I am.

Truly the praise

and the provisions are Yours,

and so is the dominion and sovereignty.

There is no partner with You.

Sacrifice

Lillahi Ta'ala...which do I slaughter? 
For the bigger picture....for faith...for You, O Lord?
I see blessings in both.
I have to be Brave and get through pains for either....which dear Lord? Am still unclear despite the signs & pictures... to still serve or to be free?


I need Clarity...please show me...

Virgin Shots!

If there's anythin at all that is worth to be happy and wheeing about lately is probably the developed photos from my virgin attempt of film photography!

Haha total noob...just grabbed the Canonet, loaded in an Arista 400 film (black & white!!) & whacked my way through the roll. I must say I was crazy ambitious...I totally abandoned the light meter on my iPhone and just shot blind, setting ISO at 200 and simply just familiarisin myself with the viewfinder.

I was sooo nervous to collect the negatives tonite....I was sooo scared the photos will turn out underdeveloped or all black or all blur! I'd cry if I had to pay so much for wasted film but thankfully....not! Phewww...Alhamdulillah!

The verdict...
Few of my favourite shots:

I've started loading in my second roll of film...tis time with a Portra 400! Hopefully with a tad more pointers from my friends I would do better for my next attempt in colours! So exciting!!