The Tumour in my Humour

The FAQs of my life now:

What's ur secret to losin so much weight?
Kurus u skarang....u diet eh? Makan apa eh?

Hai mcm nak jawab je....

Makannn....makan hati!! 
i tak recommend tapi if u nak sangat...Try la!

heh.
 
 

 
 

Little by Little

It feels great that she acknowledges that what I have been doin is not just utter nonsense but somethin worth pursuin.

It is not just about havin fun but passion & love for the things I put my heart & mind into. Social media & Crafting...to her these are things I love wastin my time on. I told her about how they are filled with opportunities & possibilities for career or entrepreneurial platforms but she remained skeptic. Till she saw an article in the newspaper recently....and realise that I'm not bullshittin about the power & joy of social networking & creating!!

I can't help but beam when she admitted she needs to tweak her mindset a lil bit. Now she believes my cause & is a spokesperson of what I enjoy doing. Alhamdulillah yessah!








 

  



 

That's fast!

Masha Allah!
How fast was ur response, Lord.
How much You opened the path to tread forward & how perfect is Your timing...and I am still reeling with Awe!

my love, u being so bad and sad is reaaaaallyyyy pushin me to the edge and makin me soooo mad but it is probably cos u r actually SCARED.

while understand i may but it doesn't make it ok that i am treated tis way. i pray you muster up some courage & stop stringing me away when actually ur heart does not intend to stay.

Wait

Ok My Lord, i'm uncertain why You arranged it tis way but surely You know better and I shall learn to stay patient & seek in learnin what lesson to draw from tis thing You decide to be settled Later.

Oh dear Lord, grant us salvation to somethin better! Please guide us towards our Bliss here & for the HereAfter! Just please don't keep me being strung along too long my Lord...it hurts, it hurts, it hurts so so bad my Lord! 

I'm in need Your salvation & intervention...

 

Wow

So utterly.
your sweet joy is my bitter truth.
perhaps it is really time to.
Thank You & You.
 

Convert?

I remember one amusing question a close friend of mine asked when she saw me donnin a hijab on my birthday. At that point it sounded funny but today I think her question made sense.

Did I convert?
Initially i went hmmmm?? but it is actually YES. 
My heart was converted.
To submit more to my Rabb.

Today I am reminded to not limit God. Just because of how limited the amount of worship I could offer to the Lord or that I have sinned so much, it does not mean that God will withhold His blessings for that little or that much that I have done for Him...rather I should keep faith in His Divine abundance of blessings...ask ask ask for forgiveness & goodness...seek seek seek God!

Also to always reflect & express gratitude for whatever I am blessed with despite having to go through one of the toughest challenges in my life. Acknowledge God's blessings, give thanks and God will provide more. Believe in that!

Always HUMBLE oneself to God & Be Courageous with People.

Thank u my Lord for enriching me today through Your words spoken by men of faith. Thank you for YouTube! hahah! I shall continue seeking You & be a better person & servant despite again & again falling into heedlessness & errors. Shut not my opportunities to learn & be closer to You just yet my Lord, for I am just about to begin tis journey with You. Shed away these shades of darkness in me bit by bit, may someday You fill my soul completely & return to You with Your Light.

I pray the same or even better for my loved ones to have such a beautiful journey with You too...today...some day...one day...may their hearts rejoice in being conscious of You! Ameen!  
 
 

In Loving Memory

Perhaps that's where I stay now and days ahead,
Together with what ifs & could have beens.

Out of sight but not out of mind only.