The Toughest Trial/Triumph

Friday the 13th, 2015. 
D-day.

I was at my toughest. I faced you. I faced the day I dread. I didn't want things to end with you for truly my heart still yearns for you and your return but it is just no longer right any more for me to pine & hope for change when there's too much guilt & self-inflicted shame you corner yourself to.

No matter how I reach out the wall you raise gets higher & higher. You feel like you don't matter when it feels like it is my belief & love for you that does not matter at all instead. You can no longer bring yourself to accept it while i can no longer tolerate your misdeeds.

Whatever holds for us forward, I shall continue prayin for you & lovin you from where I am. I shall not falter & let my whole world crumble by the things I feel mistreated abt. I shall keep breathin, keep goin, keep growin & keep faith.

May you do the same & some day overcome & forget your guilt & find true happiness & gratitude in your heart & be drawn closer to the Almighty. May the Lord grant you strength in your daily battles & tenacity to face & overcome you difficulties.