Catalyst of Miss Grouchy

Dead lines->anxiety->insufficient sleep, lack of alertness->forgetfulness->mistakes->irritation ->cold->desperation ->helplessness->loneliness->In Need of constant Comforting & Attention from a certain someone who's always so busy at War :(

God only noe how terrible it has been for me tis whole semester, struggle is endless, up to tis day. Exam commences in less than 2 weeks, and i'm really sufferin a burn-out from all the shit lab reports that got worse every new experiment. I juz feel like givin up! Feel so tired of psychin myself up day in day out, tryin to stay cheery and upbeat despite all the negative feelings that kept on brewin n churnin inside. Sometimes i fail to keep it all together, and it is always my loved ones who end up gettin lashed at. feel Bad n Guilty abt that. when u feel at worst, it seems so hard to be thoughtful and considerate of others' feelings, it's all abt Me Me Me.

there ain't no peace in my heart, till i hand up my 3 days late report. after tonite, it's time to slog it out for exams. i MUST PASS my modules tis semester, i do not wanna go thru another round of tis Hell! Anyway Dr Kho is such a sweetie. Handed out to us lil notebooks to mark the end of our class. He said it was his lil Christmas gift to us. All tis while i have been cursin and swearin at whatever was taught in his lessons, fidgetin n feelin sleepy listenin to his monotonous lectures...yet he is so nice! Felt sick for awhile there cos i knew he had good intentions and maybe he was also tryin to bribe us to strive well. heheh. wonder if he was somehow an Army personnel, who juz noe wat to do when his men's morale is low! tsk. i'll do my best in the next 10 days of revision, hopefully i can get things right and pass that module from hell! The Notebook will be my Motivation...Dr Kho, u r monotonous but u rock :b