Lacklustre Performance & Nostalgic Moments

First and foremost, i am disappointed with the way Manchester United play their games after a looong time of not watchin their matches. Utter defeat at Middlesborough homeground...4-0!! Tragic but they really deserved to be trashed for the way they played. Already last week, they showed complacency and hah, i was not surprised that they did not buck up tis week either. They shot themselves in the foot! The Middlesborough 2nd goal would not have succeed if Ferdinand used a lil bit more of his brain and body to clear off that freakin ball. What is wrong with the team?? I tell u what is wrong...the players are behavin more like spoilt brats than Champions. They did not put their hearts into the games, They are not focused for they keep losing the freakin ball to the opponents, They did not make Creative play and their captain is Not Inspirin!! Urghhhhh what happened to the Champion's attitude?? God!!! Keane's presence is really missed and Gigg's too. Tis current team is so boring. The only fire i saw was from Smith, Rooney & Richardson...C'mon Sir Alex, leave Scholes alone, let Smith be the new captain or some other driven lads. U can't win the Premier League like tis! C'mon United! C'mon United!

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Spent most of today makin my speciality : Kuih Honey Cornflakes. Yeah the super duper easy yet yummy Hari Raya goodies. My mum retired from makin her Kek Lapis, Kek Gulung & Tart Sempret so i am the lone hope for home made goodies in tis house. What is becomin of the women in tis household? Hahaha! Anyways, my mum Finally asked a personal question which I was so utterly shocked to hear. I couldn't believe my ears...I dunno whether to jump for joy or to worry. It was a weird weird moment *Yikes* Nevertheless today, i was not pissed with my mum, we all did our own chores peacefully.

While workin hard at makin the kuih, heard a song by Feminin. The first person i thought of was  bf. Then as the song kept playin, I had a picture of Diana dancin to 2 other Feminin's songs while we were back in secondary school...then bring me memories of Badawiyah, Suhaila & the bunch of us...all preparin & performin for Hari Raya concerts back then. I wasn't quite a Feminin fan back then, nor am i now...but i guess, tis girl group dominated the Malay music scene durin that era and almost each of their songs played on radio back then, carry a certain memory with them. hmmm, anyone got their music on the comp.? Care to share?? Hehe!

Had dinner with bf at Centrepoint's Fish & Co., met someone from secondary school, who actually had an impact in my life. She sat next to our table without noticin bf & i till bf called her."Mrs Rostina Koh?" She was kinda surprised but smiled at me. She forgot bf was from the same school as I am but she remembered me, by name! Wow i'm impressed!! And so happy! Tak sia-sia that she is my Favourite teacher! The one who gave me inspiration ( i still remember the words she wrote in my autograph book!) to pursue my dreams and the one who spurred my interest in Biology... Gosh....after 7-8 years, it felt so good to see her again. I so wanted to thank her for bein such a lovely teacher and I wanted to tell her it's through her sincere way of teaching and sharing knowledge that somehow had made me who I am today. Told her that i was workin part-time as well as studyin, doin my degree in Biotechnology and i saw her smile. Maybe she's happy for me that i got tis far...Maybe she felt her efforts back then was not wasted at all.

It was such a long time ago that i last saw her and her boys...now they are all big!! One was a newborn back then and another was probably a pre-schooler...But now, the newborn is a big boy and the pre-schooler...is Soo TaLL. My Gooodness.....the effect of 7 years was really stark! It got Bf feelin OLD! Wow....I dunno wat to say.... I'm overwhelmed by warm fuzzy feelin of yesteryears and oh how we have grown so much older without realisin it....Unbelievable.     

  

U gotta walk with hip stickin out & Hop...tis is Hip Hop

LOL!!!

I was almost gullible to think he was rite, when Mr Roze said tis durin one of the Hip Hop lesson for a secondary school post-exam activities! Hmmm i wasn't familiar with hip hop but thank God i did not try to follow what he said or else i'd have made a fool of myself in front of those teenagers !

Ok actually my purpose of writing up tis entry is to ask if any one of u, guys and gurls, would be interested to join a Hip Hop dance class held by MDIS. I personally believe I need a lil introduction, breakdown & practise on the moves so that i won't look like a dork compared to the rest of the assistant instructors in the future. Ok here's the details:

 

Introduction to Hip Hop

Learn to dance with MORE attitude through this high energy hip hop class! Whether you want to be a professional like JT, Usher or Janet, or you just want to have a good fun time and exercise, you'll learn all the basic skills you need right here.

Date	:	(4 sessions) - Every Friday Starting 9th December 2005
Time	:	7.00pm - 8.00pm
Venue	:	MDIS UniCampus
Fees	:	$30 (Member) $35 (Non-member)

About the Instructor:

Adelene is a young and bubbly dance instructor whose strength lies in her ability to engage the participants with her entertaining style in delivering the sessions. She has taught at several organisations in Singapore. Students of her dancing sessions have been largely impressed by her ability to conduct a class that successfully meets their objectives and requirements. Having graduated from the Royal Academy of Dancing, Adelene has participated and excelled in numerous dance competitions and events including NUS Hip Hop Night, PSC Night, Heritage Carnival, NYP's Musical Journey and Ren Ci Charity Show.

Let me noe ok? Then we can go together N have hip hoppin fun. Juz a note to the MDIS gurls, a couple of the dates might clash with ur exams.

Cold Hearted

That's me towards my mum!

Ok i dunno wat is so freakin wrong with me. I get irritated very easily with my mum. These past few days, i have juz been surpressin myself, holdin my tongue from lashin out at her or make really sarcastic remarks at her. But i gave her tis "Black" face all the time. Every lil thing she does makes me angry, from switchin On the radio while i was studyin, to askin my help to attach a document for her email while i'm rushin for my reports. Sometimes, actually most times, i really prefer bein ard the house Alone, where no one bugs me to do this and that and I have all the peace and time to myself. Is this a trait of an ungrateful daughter?? Good Lord, i feel so...esp. when today IS her birthday yet i am so so cold.

I really do not know what contributes to such a behaviour when it comes to my mum, i am nice and tolerant to others but not my mum, the one who is most concern abt me? hmm i hope...but so many times, i feel like she's NOT observant of her daughter yet so dependent on me, esp. when it comes to computer stuff. Grrr taught her a few times already how to use that damn email and everytime she forget! And everytime i'll get irritated when she asks me to teach her again! Fuckin hell, next time Saofiah...write down the instructions instead of gettin pissed!

It's so funny, when i feel down & troubled, i go to my dad...he got tis miracle touch. Tho he barely lifts a finger in the house and hardly talk to me, he got this magic touch my mum lacks. He doesn't even have to Open his mouth (he doesn't speak much to me anyway, most of the time when he opens his mouth, He's there to snap at me when i do somethin wrong) yet he always lifts my spirit. Same as to waking me up in the mornin...I hate my mum wakin me up. She shouts and shake me but my dad, he's different. He strokes my face gently and sit next to me and call me gently.

Kept tellin myself be nice to my mum, she's like the Backbone of tis family yet time and again, i get pissed with her. Maybe it's because I have tis certain respect for her for bein a Great Strong woman that sometimes when she asks somethin mindless or make remarks without even findin out the truth, i felt that my belief is violated? Or maybe because from young I have not been all chummy n snuggly with her that I feel strained whenever she's ard me? Arggh i dunno, it's really crazy...i'm pissed at her then afterwards i'm guilty yet the cycle goes on! Any solution here? Pls dun tell me to talk to her, we both have strong AND clashing opinions! Looks like i have much to apologise for on Eid's mornin

--back to my lab report--

23.10.05 East Meets West

Had a lil gatherin with my cuzzins at our eldest cuzzin's. He agreed to host the rest of us and oh boy, he spoilt us silly with his cookin...Western style....!! Sumptuous iftar!

We started off with Chicken & Mushroom soup as appetiser, then we moved on to Rosemary Grilled chicken with Whip Potato & Whip Sweet Potato & Corn Cob! Woooooh Shiok!

We took a lil break & catch up with one another, i downloaded for my cuzzin MSN messenger & played with the 4month old twin nieces of mine before tuckin in to Dessert: Apple Cinnamon Bread Pudding with Caramel Almond Fudge Ice Cream & Strawberry Vanilla Ice Cream...Double Wooooh!!

All food were HOMEMADE (except for the ice creams), can u believe my cuzzin??? Yum yum yum...

Thank U so much for feedin us wif all the good food man!! U DA Man!

Al-Fatihah for Pak Lah's pillar of strength

My sincerest condolences to all Malaysians for the passing away of the Prime Minister's wife yesterday while battling breast cancer. Even our own president Nathan seemed to be so sad when interviewed. May her soul rest in peace in tis ramadhan month & Pak Lah remain strong & bring u more success despite his personal loss.

 

 

Solace comes in the form of a Friend

Alphonse de Lamartine says....
There is a woman at the beginning of all great things.

Michael Flatley says...
Whenever I hear, "It can't be done," I know I'm close to success.

Robert H. Schuller says.....
Every burden is a blessing.

Voltaires says...
No problem can stand the assault of sustained thinking.

Lydeeana says...
Hope the qoutes give you the motivation to perservere through the tough times...

 

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Ur gesture really really touched me.

Thank u for liftin me up when I am down.

For I am truly blessed.....

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Gimme Cells, Proteins & Genes Dammit, NOT Chemistry!

Ok to anyone who DO NOT wanna read the crap abt my school stuff, my advice to You: S-C-R-A-M at tis instance!

Urgghhhhh!!!! I'm trainin to be a BIOtechnologist not a freakin Mad Chemist!! Why do u have to offer modules such as Chem207 to kill my freakin retardin brain cells already, MQ???!! ARhhrhhrh!!!!!

my MDIS bachelorettes will be askin me to cool down and they'll say if they can get thru tis hell, why not i....But the fact is, tis is BullCrap!! WHY?? WHY?? I hate all the d[NO]/dt= somethin somethin....wat is the order of rxn of X? Prove tis mechanism bla bla bla....I hate tis part of Chemistry...Why do i have to put up with tis shit?? I dun need tis in Biotechnology...Gimme agar plates to grow bacteria & maybe some DNA to purify or take my blood to do some diagnostic tests...teach me those instead of tis crap integration, calculation Chemistry shit!

Gurls, i dunno how u can bear & slog through Chem207...it's worse than Chem204 and i think Chem341 also slightly better (well at least the Carbohydrate part)! All the latin terms to represent somethin and substitution here n there are really a MAJOR TURN OFF & needless to say it's CONFUSIN...and the worst thing is, it's not even numbers that we are dealin with....How do u gurls do it?? I'll have Mid Sem Exam for 207 on tis comin Saturday (yes another Saturday 7-10pm lesson! hubba hubba!) yet i'm so so NOT ready ok. I can't even remember how to Integrate and use log or ln anymore!! it's really frustratin!! Oh i've yet to mention dat i have not even looked at wat is required of me to write in the Kinetics lab report, that's due on the 25th...for sure i'll be goin CUCKOO tryin to plot freakin Graphs n stuff.....SHMUCKKKK!!!

honestly ppl, i feel so pathetic & PaRaNoiD rite now...even Daddy's rare heartwarmin hugs are not makin me feel much better. tis is really demoralisin.......good nite.

 

 

 

Reverse.Stitch

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I poke yours, U spank mine Affair

Long Hair, Short Hair, Short Hair, Long Hair

Brownie Specs

Warm Fuzzy feelin, Rainy Day

Exchange? Trade? Reverse? Mirror? 

 

Sucky Schooly Saturday

i am really feelin sleepy rite now. currently typin away in the lab. ehh? wat lab? well...i'm back at my old work place, as a part-time production technologist. the company's no longer called Genelabs Diagnostics, now it's MP Biotechnology. dun sound as good as it used to...and i heard that things are not gettin any better either except for higher demand of products, thus my supervisor called me up to help out in the process. so yeah i'm back here, workin 3 days a week. started out on thursday...i didn't feel like I have left the lab for 8 months already, it felt more like i juz had a slight amnesia cos everythin's so familiar...with minor changes. was greeted wif smiles and friendly comments by my surprised(they didn't noe i was comin back!) colleagues and my hair got the most attention..."Wahhh ur hair so long already ah!!"

tis week i've been feelin pretty "Lemau" or weak..maybe cos it's the first week i'm fastin, body still adaptin to changes and rushin thru assignment and stuff. i juz feel like sleepin all the time, even when i had to do kickboxin on wednesday, i seem to lost my zest. feel really "Blah" tis week...

caught up wif my cuzzins yesterday at my granny's & finally did my first Tarawih too. juz did 8 rakaat (itupun i felt lemau...gosh!) wif my uncle as imam and the whole buncha cuzzins and aunts were the jemaah. the feel wasn't as nice as prayin in the mosque altho it felt kinda nice to pray wif so many family members. gee i dunno if i am ever gonna be goin to the mosque for it cos it seems like school work is piling up and another mid sem exam is comin up. Wat is Ramadhan without goin for Tarawih man?? It doesn't feel complete at all!! Sigh...Gotta do much reading n practices...hopefully i can do so on nites that i do not have classes n i hope i won't end up sleepin! cos u noe...after eatin n u r all full...ur eyes get heavy and soon...Zzzzz...

Arghhh it's 1.45 already...and i'm supposed to be in class at 2!! Arghghhh ok ok, gotta go. it's gonna be a schooly Saturday for me. lessons are from 2-10pm wif 2 hours break in between. Sucky...Alritey mates...Take care n mesye, enjoy ur Buka session wif ur Army Pals...i'll be tryin to keep my eyes open for my lessons today... 

 

Get Up from that Bed of Roses already!!

OKAY!

Woke up tis mornin . I had 2 bad dreams. I dreamt that bf left me for a holiday in America wif his travel buddies and that I was separated from my dad in a tsunami/storm-struck beach. I remembered shoutin my lungs out callin out to my dad and he was nowhere in sight. I grew so scared when I saw oil tankers bein swept up the shore. I shouted n shouted, but in vain. I called him on his cellphone and the last thing he said to me was..."Don't worry, take good care of urself, I'll be ok..." sounds like he knew he was...dying. The next thing i knew was i woke up hyperventilatin & i felt so sad that i cried. I was so worried that my dream was an Omen...and right until tis moment I have yet to see him for the day. i hope he is Okay.

Bad dreams were not enuff to trouble my day, i was greeted wif an SMS from a classmate askin me whether I have received an email from a lecturer abt an assignment. What?!! I was not informed abt it? Apparently, I have a new assignment for Chem 207, and the deadline is 17th Oct.

Probably the dreams & SMS were there to somehow put me in the right frame of mind to kickstart my revision & research for the mid-semester exam as well as my assignments which are due on the 14th & 17th Oct. My first God-sent test for Ramadhan? *shrugs*

For now, i shall Focus & Aim to do my best for my exam & assignments. It's a race against time....GANBATTE neh!!

Psst...Daddy's home now...he's singin as he made his way into the house! *LoL* Pheewwwww~

Salam Ramadhan

For each Muslims, the advent of Ramadhan brings different meanings. While there are those who welcome Ramadhan with a deep passion for its benefits and blessings, there are also those who feel its “burdens and difficulties” and yet those welcoming it solely for the sake of the festive Eid celebrations that come after Ramadhan.

The diversity in response is a manifestation of the level of iman and taqwa of each individual. The fact, however, remains that Ramadhan is a holy and glorious month – the month of worship, the month of al-Qur’an and the month to multiply manifold our acts of worship and level of iman. Indeed, Ramadhan is full of wisdom and meanings.

A time of Remembrance...

A time of Devotion....

A time of Prayers....

A time of Reflection...

 

To all my Muslim brothers and sisters, may the goodness of Ramadhan brings Nur to ur soul & may Allah bless u with strength & patience as u remain steadfast in ur Ibadah & Amal in this glorious month. Insya Allah

 

Marhaban ya Ramadhan....

 

Multiply Makan Affair@Sakura Intl Buffet

NO pics of food, ppl...we were all too engrossed in EATING & STONING....hehehe! Thank u Dee for initiating tis gatherin & all for gracing the occassion! More makan expedition soon aye!

Fitness Network's 10th Anniversary Dinner

Where I had my debut performance with my dearest dance partner, Jessica, it's a dream come true in the company of my greatest supporter, Ned, she's been there for me since I started my Beginner's class. Hafiz, my closest Multiply buddy, Sitz, my ever supportive cuzzin & most of all....My Mesye, the one who adores me most!!

The Oyster Challenge

Spent a wonderful evenin last nite wif the MDIS bachelorettes along with Rafeeqah, Hafiz, Dee's bf & my bf at Sakura International Buffet. Food was pretty good, lotsa seafood...hot plate style, deep fried style, tempura style, Chinese style, salad style...but I did not really go ga-ga over any of the food..despite bein the last one still eatin while the rest were KO. hee...it's not cheap ok, i gotta maximise my $26 and since bf doesn't really fancy seafood, i gotta eat his share too but it was such a waste that i missed out on the lobster & crayfish! Pffft! Dessert was nice too esp. the Marble Cheesecake, I wanted to have more than one piece of it but gosh, i was juz too full!

The gatherin we had was actually to celebrate the birthdays of 2 of our friends... Missy Liz & Mr Fyz but somehow, it was also an eventful nite for bf & i. It was the first time that we both..ate Oysters in the 24 years of our lives! Hehe...we both stared at how Hafiz ate his oysters earlier and throughout the few rounds of getting food on our plates, bf kept challengin me to try out those gooey lookin things. I told him no yet he kept insisting. Fine...so i told him, ok if i try...he gotta try too. He made excuses bla bla...but finally succumbed and we both picked the smallest that were on the ice bed. We added quite abit of tabasco sauce before headin back to our seats and then, it was the showdown. I remembered Hafiz said earlier that we SHOULDN't CHEW the oysters cos it'll taste horrible, so we gotta swallow it whole. Ok...so by the count of 3, i got the oyster in my mouth and i NEARLY CHOKED myself with the damn oyster!!

I spit it out and turned to bf...he downed his oyster already...Ooops!! ok ok, bein the graceful competitor i took in the oyster again, bite it twice and swallowed!! I cringed at every bite to anticipate anythin gooeyly awful..but hmmm it didn't taste that bad. In fact, I tasted mostly the lemon & tabasco flavours...but the chokin feelin is still stuck here in my throat! Yurrgghh!! I couldn't stop laughin at the ordeal we put ourselves through, it was utter Lunacy !!

U WON mesye....Obviously, Fear is NOT a factor for u....*LoL*

Oh btw...thank u Rafeeqah for recordin the historic moment eh. Hehehe and the rest, for watchin us made a fool of ourselves...hehehehe

 

 

A Nite to Remember

I think I am goin to bed  tonite...cos I made history witnessed by my dearest peoples as well as strangers & acquitances. I never thought that such a moment would come true But tonite, it did.

Tonite was my very FIRST belly dance performance!

After a miserable plate of pathetic portion of rice, octopus(slurp), spring rolls, wantons, lettuce, toufu & beef... Jessica (my dance partner)& I excused ourselves to the toilet to prepare for our dance. After borin speeches & testimonials abt the fitness centre, it was finally our turn to perform on a pathetic petite stage...Luckily it was still big enuff to accomodate the two of us. Tsk! Before I made my way to the stage, I told myself not to mess up cos rite there in the audience are people who took their time & paid money to support me & it is only right that i do not put all those to waste.

As the music blasted, i got a lil tense...in fact I WAS tensed & nervous! Wat do u expect, when tis is my FIRST time performin to an audience whereby 90% of them are literally strangers and matured adults, lookin serious & I do not even expect any cheerings from them. I tried carvin a smile like how I did for ACES day but i could feel my lips quiverin. I dunno how I looked but I juz try to look straight in the audience & smile a cramped smile. Tried to find familiar faces amongst the crowd & yes, I spotted my table!! The whole bunch of them were standin & cheerin & videoing or snappin away...!! Wheeee~ I'm so happy!! And best of all, I spotted my dearest mesye also movin to the music...I can't help smilin away on the stage lookin at him, as well as my cuzzin all smiley. I dunno...it felt so Good,they juz lifted my spirits and in an instance, my quiverin lips were gone!! My routine went pretty well despite doin a couple of blunders here & there. After our duet performance, Jessica proceeded to perform her Drum Solo piece...and she did really nice, despite lookin a lil lost for awhile when she missed her cue but she covered her ground well, and Voila...we ended our performances wif big big smiles!! Gotten ourselves some compliments from the ladies seatin at the next table as well as another ex-colleague of mine. Got us grinnin again!! And Hafiz, said our performance was worth the money he paid! YEAY!!!

Soon we were off to the outdoors & were snappin away photos..as usual! Wat are events like these without a lil photo session ehh?? Hehehe...Pose pose pose...till it was time for lucky draw. When I got back to my seat....there was already somethin at our table...apparently, Hafiz won somethin & Iyuan went on stage to get the prize...Oh damn, missed takin his pic. ahahah...

We left after the Lucky Draw & proceeded to Holland Village. I felt really obliged to get my people somethin...so I offered to get them Ice Blended drinks from Coffee Bean and they were more than happy to get the treat. Then we chilled at the carpark & drank away....Ahhh nice...Then Hafiz as usual, drove us all back....He's always sendin people home, never think twice abt it unlike some people who are soo calculative when it comes to petrol consumptions. Once again Thank You Hafiz for sendin me home safely as well as the rest.

THANK U Mesye, Ned, Sitz & Hafiz for Supportin me tonite. THANK U Jessica for a wonderful time...rite from rehearsals till the moment we were on stage and THANK YOU Jim for ur support as well as the ride. Oh oh and not to forget the gurls who wished me luck via SMS...Hafi & Rafeeqah, THANK U too! It is indeed a nite to remember....

Oh oh oh...The Sweetest things....