Sacrifice

Lillahi Ta'ala...which do I slaughter? 
For the bigger picture....for faith...for You, O Lord?
I see blessings in both.
I have to be Brave and get through pains for either....which dear Lord? Am still unclear despite the signs & pictures... to still serve or to be free?


I need Clarity...please show me...

Virgin Shots!

If there's anythin at all that is worth to be happy and wheeing about lately is probably the developed photos from my virgin attempt of film photography!

Haha total noob...just grabbed the Canonet, loaded in an Arista 400 film (black & white!!) & whacked my way through the roll. I must say I was crazy ambitious...I totally abandoned the light meter on my iPhone and just shot blind, setting ISO at 200 and simply just familiarisin myself with the viewfinder.

I was sooo nervous to collect the negatives tonite....I was sooo scared the photos will turn out underdeveloped or all black or all blur! I'd cry if I had to pay so much for wasted film but thankfully....not! Phewww...Alhamdulillah!

The verdict...
Few of my favourite shots:

I've started loading in my second roll of film...tis time with a Portra 400! Hopefully with a tad more pointers from my friends I would do better for my next attempt in colours! So exciting!!

 

The Tumour in my Humour

The FAQs of my life now:

What's ur secret to losin so much weight?
Kurus u skarang....u diet eh? Makan apa eh?

Hai mcm nak jawab je....

Makannn....makan hati!! 
i tak recommend tapi if u nak sangat...Try la!

heh.
 
 

 
 

Little by Little

It feels great that she acknowledges that what I have been doin is not just utter nonsense but somethin worth pursuin.

It is not just about havin fun but passion & love for the things I put my heart & mind into. Social media & Crafting...to her these are things I love wastin my time on. I told her about how they are filled with opportunities & possibilities for career or entrepreneurial platforms but she remained skeptic. Till she saw an article in the newspaper recently....and realise that I'm not bullshittin about the power & joy of social networking & creating!!

I can't help but beam when she admitted she needs to tweak her mindset a lil bit. Now she believes my cause & is a spokesperson of what I enjoy doing. Alhamdulillah yessah!








 

  



 

That's fast!

Masha Allah!
How fast was ur response, Lord.
How much You opened the path to tread forward & how perfect is Your timing...and I am still reeling with Awe!

my love, u being so bad and sad is reaaaaallyyyy pushin me to the edge and makin me soooo mad but it is probably cos u r actually SCARED.

while understand i may but it doesn't make it ok that i am treated tis way. i pray you muster up some courage & stop stringing me away when actually ur heart does not intend to stay.

Wait

Ok My Lord, i'm uncertain why You arranged it tis way but surely You know better and I shall learn to stay patient & seek in learnin what lesson to draw from tis thing You decide to be settled Later.

Oh dear Lord, grant us salvation to somethin better! Please guide us towards our Bliss here & for the HereAfter! Just please don't keep me being strung along too long my Lord...it hurts, it hurts, it hurts so so bad my Lord! 

I'm in need Your salvation & intervention...

 

Wow

So utterly.
your sweet joy is my bitter truth.
perhaps it is really time to.
Thank You & You.