Live Life And Move On

Just when this heart was feelin so wrecked & heavy,
Angels sent me their love & prayers unexpectedly...
Masya Allah....
Thank you my Lord

Indeed You listened and put ease in my hardship...how beautiful is it to go through all these and be drawn only closer to You tis Ramadhan...I shall pay the deeds forward with a lil prayer too. Please bless all my loved ones who are strugglin in their daily lives, jugglin their responsibilities towards their families while tryin their best to better themselves in servin You, my Lord with much patience, steadfastness, ease and serenity of the heart, mind and soul. 

Amin.

Boundary

The nicer the person usually the greater the problems they have with boundaries. 

It is very important for those around us to experience the consequences their own actions.

Why am I being hopelessly hopeful despite being time & time again violated mentally & emotionally? Why oh heart you keep wanting to hold on when we know the situation is screamin at me to Get Out?? 

I do know what I want and what needs to be done for myself and of the other party to make it work again and yes oh so many times tis heart aches & breaks cos we are not on the same page but it feels like we are not done yet.

I am following my heart & constantly praying for God to keep guiding me to take the right path & lead me to that Bliss eventually yet it feels like it is not right for me to be in a hurry...it feels like there are still lessons in store for me, and in that I seek to implement Sabr in my struggles & for continuous flow of Guidance & more Clarity to make the right moves. Yes again and again and again, I rage, I rant, I grief yet there is always that nagging feeling to forgive and try again and again and again. WHY?? Do i not learn my lesson?!

Are these thoughts, guts & actions of mine simply excuses or denials, my Lord? Is it really because so that I don't have to face the fact that I have to break bonds to set myself free from mistreatment or disrespect? Am I really allowing another human to step on me by being tis vulnerable to open & learn from all these that You have arranged for us, ya Rabb?? If tis is the one thing that I am so weak at or tis is one of the Biggest lesson to learn in my life, keep showing me the way to overcome it & figure it out, my Lord...so that I do not transgress myself and those who truly love me.Help me save myself from bein a victim to becomin a victor against others who patronise me & my own doing.

"La ila ha illa anta, subhanaka inni kuntu mina dzalimin"

 

Strength in Numbers

32.

Thrown off tangent, smacked right out of the comfort zone & utterly derailed yet I know from all the pains & helplessness, I am not alone in my struggles.

This life is Divinely planned, this journey a personal affair but He sends me Angels & glad tidings to live strong & keep faith moment by moment, step by step each living day.


Subhanallah. Alhamdulillah. Allahu Akbar.

Tis Weathering Heart

Despite the heat, despite the storms, despite the haze and despite the hail,
YOU never left me.
YOU gave me strength.
Though my heart alternates between turmoiled & still & I could go crazy facing all these weathers these past months, YOU have shown me & pushed me to take bold steps in taking ownership of my life & self-respect. I now trust no one, not even myself with my heart but only YOU. 
What ever grand plan you have for us, I am just thankful that in these troubled times I have learnt that what best to do is to return my heart to YOU, the Best of planners & the Turner of hearts.

Guide us to the straight path - The path of those upon whom You have bestowed favor, not of those who have evoked [Your] anger or of those who are astray. (Al-Fatihah: 6-7) 

Only Human

crumblin to pieces,
i need to hide
i need to heal
only with the Lord in my heart right now
oh love, it's just getting too painful every day.

u r sorry for hurtin me,
and i'm sorry for not bein able to be all that strong i wish & u hope i could be.

never do i wish to part but now it is getting wayyy too hard.
pls have a heart.

Oh You

Liar Liar pants on fire!

Keep the Faith

In pain n uncertainties, we shall learn to let go of fears n grow in faith.